Trying to Fly

I’ve been trying to ‘Fly’ in two ways.

First, with Flylady. If you have no clue what I’m talking about, ‘FlyLady’ is a website and email system (and much more) dedicated to helping people get their homes and life in order. And it’s free, which is awesome. I know I’m not the only one out there who feels like a failure with housekeeping…so FlyLady is a priceless gem. I am determined to get the system working for me someday.

(of course, that means I need to let my lower back heal, and stop going hog-wild and re-injuring myself…not even sure what I did, but it’s been going on for 2 weeks, silly me…)

Second, is letting go.

That’s the hardest thing for me. I remember stuff that happened as far back as Preschool that I still have pangs of guilt for. How funny is that? …but I know I need to not only let go of things I feel bad for, but people. I’ve lost friends and family over the years, some very painful losses, and it’s hard to just let that go. I think that’s where voids come from. We had something special, say a prize rose, and it dies…and we keep the pot. Why? I guess it all leads back to feeling guilty, like we didn’t do enough, or missing what we once had.

So, I need to fly. We all do. We need to take life like a kite, run with it, and let it go. If you don’t let go, it will never fly…no matter how fast you run.

(yes, I said this on facebook and twitter today, but I can’t help myself! It’s my new outlook! :-)

Love you all, *hugs*